Yesterday was the girls first softball games and they did great! Autumn's team tied. 15 to 15 I think the score was and Autumn's had a home run! I was sooo proud! :-) Dirt Diva's is the name of there team which is kinda kewl because Autumn's reminds me of a Diva! lol We didn't get to stay for all of Jade's game or Autumn'a second game because when Mason got there he was not enjoying it.. lol He wanted to roll around in the dirt and I didn't want him too.. And on top of that it was windy and cold so we ended up having to leave and Robbie could tell it kinda upset Jade which made me sad. But we did get to see most of her game and we are so proud of them both!
I got sun burnt also! That's the WONDERFUL thing about being a red head.. Note my sarcasm!
Today is the surprise bday party for my husband. I am sooo excited because he has no idea what is going on! He told me when we first got married that noone has ever really done anything for his birthday other than his mother.. And my husband is an AMAZING man if I haven't already said this before. He never fails to make holidays special for me and I felt it was only fair and right to do this for him as well.. So, I decided to plan a surprise party. I ordered a cake and got a few decorations and invited his friends and family. Right now he is out with his Dad and best friend at the bass pro shop so he can stay occupied while I get things together and everyone has time to get here! :)
I will write about how that turned out later!
The other day we got my stepdaughter for our weekly Thursday visit, She got in the car and the first things she say's is "Hi Amanda, Hi Amanda" and that might not seem odd to any of you, but to me.. It upset me. This little girl is like my own daughter. I have been in her life since she was one and ever since about 6 months after I met her father, she has called me momma. On her own.. She just started calling me that one day out of nowhere.. Out of all the kids I have spent the most with her. Robbie used to have to work alot so when he had her, I always had her. Plus, his ex used to leave her alot so when she did, I would have her.. So, I just kinda picked up the "momma" role which I loved and took alot of pride in because when I first met her.. She was shy and a little reserved.. She was definitely a child that didn't just love ANYONE.. She was one that you had to win over.. And so for her to think of me and call me momma, it meant alot.. When she called me Amanda the other day I really didn't think to much of it at first. I figured that someone on her mothers side probally just calls me Amanda to her and has no idea she call's me momma.. But then when Robbie sit's her in her car seat she is saying this in the backseat "Amanda,Not momma, Momma not Donna" (Donna is her mothers name) which just makes me think that her mother or someone has been coaching her to not call me momma.. Which kind of hurt's because I have had alot to do with the raising of this child and I have put alot of love and time into her like she was my own child. Robbie assured me to not let it bother me, that she was at a very influenced age right now and that she will always think of me as her second mother despite people telling her otherwise.. And he is right..Because it only took 10 mins and she was already loving on me and calling me her momma again. I have no idea what I would do if Robbie and I ever went out separate ways.. These kids mean the world to me.
Last night we had some friends over.. It was pretty fun although we really didn't do anything.. lol I am pretty sure my friends think I am one of the most boring 22 year olds they have ever met lol
I just can't bring myself to act like a 22 year old. I feel much older although I don't always act it, obviously.
Last night I tried to have a drink and I just stopped because nothing is really fun anymore about drinking. I just feel like I have passed that stupid stage in my life.
And I feel like I have lost all my friends and the only one I really have left, is slipping away as well.
I have lost a good friend due to my own choice.. I told her some things she really didn't want to hear. But I can honestly say it was the truth and I just said what others didn't have the guts to say to her but they think it just like I do. And what I said had to do with more of the fact of how she has been lately as a person. She has said crappy things about my family and my kids and EVERYONE for that fact and it's just gotten to the point where she is a cold hearted and immature person and we are just on two diffirent levels in life right now which is sooo sad because I love her to death and wish to never not have her in my life. But, if she can't see the wrong doing and see that she is wrong in certain areas then it will just have to be that way because I am done with being nice to everyone and hiding how I truly feel.. And I expect others to do the same with me.. If I am messing up, TELL ME! Don't just sit back and agree with me. That is being fake. She won't even talk to me about anything which is stupid. She is in my family and she will have to face be eventually so it's best we just go ahead and end things on a civil note.
Robbie did another tattoo last night.. It was a Hello Zombie Kitty! lol It was pretty cute..
I got sun burnt also! That's the WONDERFUL thing about being a red head.. Note my sarcasm!
Today is the surprise bday party for my husband. I am sooo excited because he has no idea what is going on! He told me when we first got married that noone has ever really done anything for his birthday other than his mother.. And my husband is an AMAZING man if I haven't already said this before. He never fails to make holidays special for me and I felt it was only fair and right to do this for him as well.. So, I decided to plan a surprise party. I ordered a cake and got a few decorations and invited his friends and family. Right now he is out with his Dad and best friend at the bass pro shop so he can stay occupied while I get things together and everyone has time to get here! :)
I will write about how that turned out later!
The other day we got my stepdaughter for our weekly Thursday visit, She got in the car and the first things she say's is "Hi Amanda, Hi Amanda" and that might not seem odd to any of you, but to me.. It upset me. This little girl is like my own daughter. I have been in her life since she was one and ever since about 6 months after I met her father, she has called me momma. On her own.. She just started calling me that one day out of nowhere.. Out of all the kids I have spent the most with her. Robbie used to have to work alot so when he had her, I always had her. Plus, his ex used to leave her alot so when she did, I would have her.. So, I just kinda picked up the "momma" role which I loved and took alot of pride in because when I first met her.. She was shy and a little reserved.. She was definitely a child that didn't just love ANYONE.. She was one that you had to win over.. And so for her to think of me and call me momma, it meant alot.. When she called me Amanda the other day I really didn't think to much of it at first. I figured that someone on her mothers side probally just calls me Amanda to her and has no idea she call's me momma.. But then when Robbie sit's her in her car seat she is saying this in the backseat "Amanda,Not momma, Momma not Donna" (Donna is her mothers name) which just makes me think that her mother or someone has been coaching her to not call me momma.. Which kind of hurt's because I have had alot to do with the raising of this child and I have put alot of love and time into her like she was my own child. Robbie assured me to not let it bother me, that she was at a very influenced age right now and that she will always think of me as her second mother despite people telling her otherwise.. And he is right..Because it only took 10 mins and she was already loving on me and calling me her momma again. I have no idea what I would do if Robbie and I ever went out separate ways.. These kids mean the world to me.
Last night we had some friends over.. It was pretty fun although we really didn't do anything.. lol I am pretty sure my friends think I am one of the most boring 22 year olds they have ever met lol
I just can't bring myself to act like a 22 year old. I feel much older although I don't always act it, obviously.
Last night I tried to have a drink and I just stopped because nothing is really fun anymore about drinking. I just feel like I have passed that stupid stage in my life.
And I feel like I have lost all my friends and the only one I really have left, is slipping away as well.
I have lost a good friend due to my own choice.. I told her some things she really didn't want to hear. But I can honestly say it was the truth and I just said what others didn't have the guts to say to her but they think it just like I do. And what I said had to do with more of the fact of how she has been lately as a person. She has said crappy things about my family and my kids and EVERYONE for that fact and it's just gotten to the point where she is a cold hearted and immature person and we are just on two diffirent levels in life right now which is sooo sad because I love her to death and wish to never not have her in my life. But, if she can't see the wrong doing and see that she is wrong in certain areas then it will just have to be that way because I am done with being nice to everyone and hiding how I truly feel.. And I expect others to do the same with me.. If I am messing up, TELL ME! Don't just sit back and agree with me. That is being fake. She won't even talk to me about anything which is stupid. She is in my family and she will have to face be eventually so it's best we just go ahead and end things on a civil note.
Robbie did another tattoo last night.. It was a Hello Zombie Kitty! lol It was pretty cute..
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