Well,
Figured I would write.. Been a while.. But I have things I need to get off my chest anyways.
Things I have kept bottled up because I just don't want to stress my husband or anyone else out.. And I am not asking for sympathy neither.. Just simply wanting to write to get it off my chest..
Last week my husband and I went to court for a Child Support review on his oldest two daughters.. And they have bumped his payments up to $900 a month..$800 in CS and $100 in insurance..
And he already pays $745 for his youngest daughter. That is $1,645 in CS.. And they expect us to live? They expect him to pay his bills and take care of two more children? After all our bills, that only leaves us $45 a month. We have already been struggling some weeks as it is to get by.. Now, we are REALLY going to struggle.. We only have TWO bills that are not a must have and that's our phone and out internet.. The rest is our way of living..elec and water and rent.. How they expect us to by food? We get all the kids a month in the summer and we are expected to be able to feed and put clothes on them for a month on $45???
My husband makes GOOD money but the government has taken it all away.. I am all for CS.. TRUST ME! I have a daughter by a deadbeat.. But I think the amounts are WAY to much and I think us women get life handed to us on a golden platter as well... We can choose to not work if we want to.. But men.. they HAVE to bust their asses or else...
This situation has made me so bitter.. So stressed and so upset..Most of the time I try to put it in the back of my mind and pretend its not even real.. Or else it will drive me insane.. Worrying non stop about what will happen.. To my marriage.. My family.. Will we come out on top and be stronger or will the financial strain cause more arguments and eventually ruin us?
It's taking a toll on everyone.. Even the kids.. Robbie's oldest cries because she misses him.. She only gets to see him every other weekend and sometimes she barely gets to see him then because he has to work every hour he can so we can try and get by.. Its not fair to him and its not fair to his children that he has to bust his ass..
They say its in the best interest for the children. How is it when their dad cant ever see them because he HAS to work ALL the time..
He goes to work at 5 and sometimes does not even come home till 1 in the morning..

I spend many days in this house ALONE.. Just me and the kids.. and they love me.. but their daddy is the one they are missing and wanting to spend the already little time they get with him..

This is not in the best interest of the children in my eyes..