Well,
Figured I would write.. Been a while.. But I have things I need to get off my chest anyways.
Things I have kept bottled up because I just don't want to stress my husband or anyone else out.. And I am not asking for sympathy neither.. Just simply wanting to write to get it off my chest..
Last week my husband and I went to court for a Child Support review on his oldest two daughters.. And they have bumped his payments up to $900 a month..$800 in CS and $100 in insurance..
And he already pays $745 for his youngest daughter. That is $1,645 in CS.. And they expect us to live? They expect him to pay his bills and take care of two more children? After all our bills, that only leaves us $45 a month. We have already been struggling some weeks as it is to get by.. Now, we are REALLY going to struggle.. We only have TWO bills that are not a must have and that's our phone and out internet.. The rest is our way of living..elec and water and rent.. How they expect us to by food? We get all the kids a month in the summer and we are expected to be able to feed and put clothes on them for a month on $45???
My husband makes GOOD money but the government has taken it all away.. I am all for CS.. TRUST ME! I have a daughter by a deadbeat.. But I think the amounts are WAY to much and I think us women get life handed to us on a golden platter as well... We can choose to not work if we want to.. But men.. they HAVE to bust their asses or else...
This situation has made me so bitter.. So stressed and so upset..Most of the time I try to put it in the back of my mind and pretend its not even real.. Or else it will drive me insane.. Worrying non stop about what will happen.. To my marriage.. My family.. Will we come out on top and be stronger or will the financial strain cause more arguments and eventually ruin us?
It's taking a toll on everyone.. Even the kids.. Robbie's oldest cries because she misses him.. She only gets to see him every other weekend and sometimes she barely gets to see him then because he has to work every hour he can so we can try and get by.. Its not fair to him and its not fair to his children that he has to bust his ass..
They say its in the best interest for the children. How is it when their dad cant ever see them because he HAS to work ALL the time..
He goes to work at 5 and sometimes does not even come home till 1 in the morning..

I spend many days in this house ALONE.. Just me and the kids.. and they love me.. but their daddy is the one they are missing and wanting to spend the already little time they get with him..

This is not in the best interest of the children in my eyes..

My Mamma's Easy and yummy scalloped potatoes!

Well, I wanted to share a little recipe with you guys.. My momma has been making scalloped potatoes this way for years, I am unsure if she got this recipe from any certain place.. All I know is I grew up eating them this way and they are super yummy and super easy.. I have 5 kids who are all different and all on the picky side and even my 4 year old who is the pickiest of all, loved them! All these things you will use, you will find in you're kitchen on any given day!

What you will need:
Salt
Pepper
Flour
Cheese
Potatoes
Milk

How to:
First off, pre heat you're oven to 350
I peal about 5 potatoes because I have a big family and we like ALOT lol But really just peal however many you think will feed you're family.
Slice the potatoes.
In a bakeable bowl, Do a layer of potatoes an dab some butter here and there. Then sprinkle some salt and pepper, and put a layer of cheese, and sprinkle some flour. Repeat these steps till the bowel is halfway full. Then pour milk halfway full of the bowel, put you're oven and let them cook until soft! :-)
They are totally yummy!

Well, Not too much has been going on. Next week Robbie goes to court.. Just ready for all this stuff to finally be over.. Seem's like we are always having to deal with ex's and Drama and just want it to be over with.. Just ready for whatever decisions.. For the better or not, we will make the best out of it either way! Wish the government wasn't so pro women and was more equal. Out of three families, Ours, his ex wife's, and his other ex, he is the ONLY one working and able to support children at this time yet, they still stick them with there mothers.. It's a messed up place! But really, what can you do? He does what he is supposed to do so I guess that is what counts most, Enough about that..
We found out last night that Autumn has a fractured Skull.. She got hit in the head with a softball two weeks ago and her mother noticed some swelling in it the other day.. Went and got xrays and turns up her skull is fractured.. They are hoping the swelling will go down on its own but if not, they will probably have to do it themselves. I have been really concerned about her.. Poor baby doll!

I have been doing ALOT of thinking lately.. I have recently started talking to Shayleigh's Aunt on her sperm donors side.. And they are wanting to see her, And I am kinda wishy washy on the idea.. I dont want to deny anyone contact with her, but also just kinda guarded of her ya know? I just wish I knew the answers to what is right ya know?
This weekend we are taking the kids to the beach.. I am excited! :-)

Well, its been a while so figured I would do a little update. Nothing really new is going on around here. Just took Victoria home last night after having her for 12 days and I am trying to re adjust back to life without her here.. I miss her.. I hate only having her every other weekend. I just wish she could stay her full time. But, My husband is a man and not a woman so he gets the short end of the stick when it comes to kids. Which to me is so cruel considering he has just as much right to have his children live with him as the woman do.. And out of him and the mothers of both his kids, he is the only one working and able to support them at the moment.. BUT, No one ever said the system was fair did they? Ne ways, Let's not even get into my thoughts of how things should be lol

Robbie and I have been having this stupid little arguments latley, and It just seem'd to hit me how I am the main cause for most of them.. And I feel soo bad.. The other night we was fighting over something someone said and then I just stopped and realized, He goes through SOOO much with other people, and I am supposed to be the one person to be on his side and make his life easier and happier and be the bright side to things and here I am just adding to his problems and making him feel even more pressure.. I swear, It sucks admitting you are wrong.. lol Especially for an Aries who is hot tempered! lol

It's just that I just can't stand how some people are.. It's like all they do is nick pick and just want to be a freaking turd all the time..Robbie's ex of all things is texting him wanting his daughters bra and underwear back.. I grabbed the phone and I just told Robbie, You deal with this because I will just get mad and say some ugly things.. And I HATE that I got mad about it.. lol But, I just could not help it.. I mean COME ON.. PANTIES?? Of all things to nick pick about, A pair of freaking PANTIES!! I sent them home in panties.. It's not like they came home pantyless.. I just had not got around to washing the clothes they wore over so I sent them in our pair.. I mean the bra I understood.. But the panties.. lmao At the time I was pissed.. But now its actually pretty funny lol I was pissed because it just shows how selfish she is and how she likes to control things because who the hell bitches about a pair of panties? ANYTHING the girls bring to our house and leave on accident I am hounded about for weeks until we bring it back, yet she has ALL kinda stuff of ours at her house and we don't say a word because we care more about the kids enjoying the things we give them than about her having our things at her house.. lol I mean we spent $300 on them buying them DS systems and games and kits for this past xmas and one of the DS's is broke and neither of them know where the games are or chargers and we have not said a word about it.. Yet, I get hounded by her over some panties and a few months back, I was hounded for TWO weeks over a plain white shirt.. lol What is sad is that I used to REALLY like this woman a WHOLE lot.. That was until all the crap started over clothes and the recent low blow that we wont get into. But, then again I am nowhere near perfect because I let these childish things make me mad, right?

Neways, Enough about all the stupidity I have to put up with on a day to day basis in a blended family. lol But, I would not have it any other way because I love my husband and all our beautiful kids!

It's hard to believe that Mason will be one in June! He is having a Dino theme party and my friend Maridee is making me some Custom boutique shortall's for him to wear to his party! :-)
Robbie and I are planning a trip to the beach the next weekend we have all the kids and we are also going to a Tattoo Expo the 22nd with his friend from work and his wife..
Yay! Adult time.. lol We never do anything with adults anymore lol!

I will post some pictures in the next blog!