The past few days have been horrible for me.. The other day Mason was up pretty much the whole night crying and I think it was due to him having a upset tummy.. So I had no sleep..Also that same day he burnt his finger on my straightner.. Well, I ran it under water and comforted him and didn't think to much more about it because it was red and I knew it hurt but didn't seem to be something over the top serious you know? Well, last night when we was out I noticed it went from just being red to having a BIG blister and swollen.. This morning it's even worse.. So I am taking him to the Dr in a bit to get it looked at because it looks soooo bad and I feel like TOTAL crap about it.. It was an accident but still.. I thought the straightner was far enough back but obviously it wasn't..

Ever have that happen? When they hurt themselves you you feel it could of been avoided and beat youreself up about it?? I have cried all morning because I feel so bad about it!
I finally thought to put baby oragel on it to numb it and it seems to have worked cause for the first time since late last night he was happy and played a while and even layed down for a nap so..

Am I the only one that got a HIGH light bill this past month??
Wow, I could not believe how high it was!
Day's like these are when I panic are worry.. About how and where we will get the money....
On top of it.. Robbie's ex wife had the NERVE to ask if we would watch the kids for them on Friday cause she and her bf had to work.. SERIOUSLY?? I am not going to be her free babysitter.. We can barely afford to get by as it is, I am not going to be doing her favors.. I mean I know that may sound harsh.. Being as they are my step kids and all, and I LOVE them and love having them around because Shay loves them sooooo much.. But, she gets ALOT LOT in CS and she is a RN so they are BANKING right about now why we are drowning and she has the nerve to ask us to "free babysit" for her... I have thought about babysitting for extra money.. MONEY..Because we need it.. Not for free... It would be a different case maybe if the hubby was home to see the girls, and spend time with them but he rarely is home on friday's anymore and so there for it would be ME doing it and I already told my hubby, NOPE.. I will not be her free babysitter.. She can either get her a babysitter or pay me SOMETHING and I will do it whenever she needs.. I mean we need MONEY, So I am not doing it for free.. God that sounds bad huh? But surprisingly everyone else agrees with me that we know.. That I should not be her babysitter when we already pay her sooo much in CS as it is..
I just know robbie will be in a bad mood today when he finds out how much our light bill was.. I really do not even want to tell him... But I have too.. What sucks is he got NO over time last week so this check will be REALLY small.. And we will only have like $60 left over after paying just he light bill.. :-(
My momma always told me one day I would kn0w what it felt like to struggle.. And I am feeling it now and I must say it is hard to deal with and my momma is a strong woman for being able to survive hard times and come out on top because this stuff is BREAKING me!
It is just working on my nerves,my heart,my marriage,my kids..
I feel as if it's pulling us all apart.. Ha, and this was supposed to be "in the best interest" what a crock.. I see nothing good that has come from this on our part...

Here I am rambling on about things we cant change..
It just feels good to sometimes let what I am feeling out...

Hello all,
Just got back from our camping trip yesterday. I was SOOO not ready to come home.. It was so peaceful out their in the woods.. What I would not give to be back in that little cabin on the lake again! Their was no arguing, no tv, No nothing.. Just relaxing and laughter and good times with the family. Now we had to come back and face the reality of everyday life.. Work,stress,money issues... If it was not for my parents giving this vacation to us we would not of had one.. It was nice and well appreciated and we both needed it!
We went on a boat ride,fishes,swam,hiked,fed some HUGE coy fish.. Just had a blast. Mason really enjoyed playing outside so much. That is one of the things I hate about living in these apartments. Not being able to just go outside and enjoy the day.. I cant wait for a year to be up so we can move..

Robbie forgot to take the trash out before we left so you can imagine what our house smelled like when we got back.. On top of it.. Their was SHRIMP in the garbage.. It took a whole day to get that awful smell out of this house!
I will post pictures from our trip later

Banana spider eating a bug at my moms house